And I can’t even explain how that works because there’s always been a deep inner knowing that I deserved fairness, or to not be tormented and shamed for being born when I didn’t even ask for it. Or the effects of being born into an incredibly abusive “family” who labels you as worthless, stubborn, and bad and starts referring to you as “nothing” a 5 year old. “Small” shadow self, but I would rather call it autism.
